Let’s just put it out there. I’m getting ready to turn the big 30 and I’m newly engaged….to an alcoholic. Alcoholism hurts EVERYONE. He has once again fooled me into thinking he is sober. Does this look sober to you? At 4am this morning while up, not being able to sleep, I happened upon these two beauties. I feel trapped. I want to stay but I know I need to let go. He’s a liar. Decietful in every. Single. Way. Into hurts. Nothing in this world hurts more then this. In the past he literally sucked the life out of me and I had never been so low in my entire life. I will NOT let myself get there again. The question is now…what is the next step for me?